Last Entry

Well this has been a long and hard journey. Everything kind of fell apart right at the very last week when I was doing so well. A lot of things have gone wrong in the last week including a family member dying and technical problems I had with my computer. It was almost as if all the forces were against me, but I pushed through it and held my head up high. Going forward I need to learn to find some kind of balance in between working full time, schoolwork and taking care of things at home. Even though my motivation is slowly draining away from me, I will not give up. This is very important to me, so I can have a better life. I'm not going through college for anybody else but myself. I'm the only one that can drag myself through it, and I'm the only one that is going to graduate. I look forward to graduating, so I can finally begin my life. Good luck to all those that are trying to achieve the same goal.

Coming to an End

These weeks have really flown by. This so far has been the most difficult term because of me getting a promotion at work, going through a tough time, and having a broken arm. I still wish that I had more time put into my schoolwork. I work over 40 hours a week and it's hard for me to find a time where I can just sit and do my schoolwork because when I come home I have other things to do. After I'm finally done with everything I just feel too tired to even think about schoolwork. Lately, I have also been feeling like I'm losing my motivation. For the first year it wasn't hard, I had an extreme amount of motivation but now as things get tougher in life as well as school I'm slowly losing it. I just need to learn to accept it, hold my head up high and keep on moving. I'm only halfway done but I still am getting much closer to my goal. I think this blogging thing is going to stick with me because I feel like it helps me to clear my mind of some things. I look forward to starting my own personal blog in the future.

Update

Well, my arm is starting to get better. I'm finally able to actually type with it. Last time I went to the doctor's office he said that I needed to start going to physical therapy three times a week. He's concerned that my arm is straightening out like it should. So on top of school, work, and things going on at home I have to go to physical therapy three times a week. It's really hard trying to juggle it all, but I know I can get through it.

My brother Justin actually came to visit me last Saturday night. I haven't seen him in about 4 years. It was a very emotional and exciting stay for him. I do wish I had more time with him because I had to work the next day and he didn't get to my house until late the night before. While he was here he actually talked to my boyfriend, and that's a first. He just opened a bar and grill in Iowa about 8 hours from here. He used to live in Hawaii because he was in the Navy, and now he's closer. Maybe in the future I will get to see him more often. I hope for the best...

Frustrated.

This week has been yet another tough one for me. I'm just getting tired of sitting around the house and not doing anything because of my arm. My arm is getting better and I'm able to move it around a little more, which is a good thing. I just can't wait to be back at work because I am the kind of person that likes to just do things. If I had to sit around for the whole 4-6 weeks I think I would have gone nuts! On the other hand, my animals are doing great. My turtle is getting so big, I remember the first day I brought him home he was about as long as my thumb. 6 months later and he's as big as my hand and still growing! My ferret is doing awesome too, she's become a lot less of a biter. Hopefully things will only get better and easier from here.

Update

My friend Andre is doing much better. He is coherent so there is little or no brain damage. I'm really happy that he's getting better and better everyday. On the other hand, I've been in a lot of pain lately because of my fractured arm. I'm very bored and restless just sitting around the house and not doing anything. I just want to go back to work but I can't until the doctor says it's alright. I'm sure my bosses miss me at work since I was doing so well. I guess I'll just have to grin and bare it until I can go back.

So...Yeah

Well I have had an interesting as well as sad couple of days. My brother and two of our very close friends were in a car accident at 5 am last Sunday morning. My brother and our friend Austin came out OK, but our friend Andre didn't make it out great he's in critical condition at the moment. Our prayers are with him and a good recovery. On top of that I had an accident at work and fractured my radial head in my left forearm. Sorry to keep this short but it's hard to type with one hand while in pain.

Working hard.

Another day goes by as I wonder how I actually get things done. I'm so busy with school, work, and getting things done in the house. It's hard having a full time job but also having two classes online to take. Sometimes I don't even get to go to the classes and it's just more work on top of actual work that I have to get done. I don't really stress out about it, but now that I'm writing in my blog I can just sit and think about how much I actually do. Where's the "me" time? I think that it's really good for everybody to have some "me" time so they don't go crazy in the future or have a nervous breakdown. Guess I'll just have to pencil that in somewhere...